hewitt.mobi: My First Post

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Monday, August 01, 2005
My First Post

Well this is the first post, this is my first time with a blog so please be patient with me.

A bit about me, I am a young gay male living in the United Kingdom. I was diagnosed with HIV this month, this is my attempt firstly to make some attempt to rationalize this & secondly to give the benefit of my experience, for what that's worth.

I live in the Midlands which as you would expect is in the middle of the United Kingdom. My interests are varied, and include computers, music, literature, current affairs, politics, activism, etc. I use the internet a lot & enjoy, Usenet, binaries & text groups, downloading & uploading music amongst other stuff.

I can't promise to post every day, but I will post regularly & we'll see how it goes......

I don't know where to start, when it comes to the HIV diagnosis. I was half expecting it actually but, hoping that it would be negative obviously. I went to my local GUM clinic, after an indeterminate same day test when I was on holiday. GUM clinics are not the best places to be, but anyway I went & had the blood tests & sat back & waited a week for the results.

I got the result by phone from one of the health advisors at the clinic. I had all the usual reactions, oh my god, what do I do. My life is over etc etc. After ruefully reflecting on the error of my past ways, floods of tears I realized that crying over spilt milk would do me or anybody else no good, & the best thing would be to get a grip & make some sense of it.

I knew the treatment for HIV had improved over the last few years, but still knew that the outcome, was likely to be not good. In fact my first thoughts were for other people, not myself & I reflected on the fact that It was inevitable that I was going to have to make some major changes in my life.

The diagnosis came at the end of a time in my life that had been chaotic, periods of drug taking, alcohol & other general madness. I look back & think do I regret it, well not really I met some of my best friends along the way the experience was invaluable & I have memories I will cherish forever.

Good friends have died along the way, for one reason or another, but I survived to tell the tale. How much detail about this part of my life I want to go into I don't know yet & I feel uncomfortable for obvious reasons going into great detail but you the reader, will be able to make your own judgment as to whether my actions were good or bad.

Anyway it's getting late & I'm going to bed, when I'll next post I'm not sure but it won't be long.......

Charlie

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