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Tuesday, April 04, 2006
This is a personal post, it's been some time since I last posted any personal stuff. I wanted to post this as I have not made any personal comment's on how life has been here. I don't know sometimes, how to explain how life has been. I know for many people they may not fully understand the consequence of a life with HIV. I hope in some way I can explain how living with this virus affects my life & my family.
I have not told any close family that I have this virus. My Aunty is the only member that I have told. For various reasons I have not told my parent's & this is causing me not inconsiderable distress. My aunt has been a great source of comfort in my battle with this virus. She, even though she has problems of her own has been very supportive. We talk often on the phone, sometimes I feel as though she is the only person who understand's how difficult life with this is.
Many people ask why I don't take more support from 'God'. I have a real problem with all forms of religion. I see religion & 'God' as 'dangerous'. I don't deny other people's right to believe if they wish but I simply 'don't'. I believe that spirituality is essential in life & choose not to believe in the traditional 'God' figure that all of us are presented with in this life from when we are born. My own spirituality take's, the form of a belief in re-incarnation & karma.
I have & will always have this belief. I choose to live my life with respect for other's & the environment. I am awe struck with the profound beauty of nature, & it saddens me that 'others' take this wonderful world that we live on for granted.
I have been heartened by most of my friend's reaction to the news of my HIV diagnosis, but realise that whilst, the reaction has been good, for the most part I have noticed that many friends have drawn away from me, perhaps because of ignorance of the true nature of the virus but mainly I suspect because they do not have the necessary emotional resources to support me through this difficult time. I don't blame them for this but wish that perhap's I had not been too quick to tell them all of the diagnosis.
I am moving soon, away from this city of my birth, Stoke On Trent. I am hoping to move to a nearby city, Manchester. I am looking forward to the move & hope that I can find friend's who understand me & can see me rather than my 'HIV' label. I hope to make this a positive move, no pun intended ;-). I will keep readers updated as to my impending move & look forward to having more to say as I move to this vibrant & muti-cultural city.
I have recently been listening to a really good series on BBC Radio 4, entitled HIV Quest for a cure. It's presented by an excellent guy who does many of the BBC radio documentaries. I have uploaded all three episodes to my webspace & the link's below will allow any interested readers, the chance if they wish to download and listen to this informative program. This is about all I have to share at the moment but hope to post soon...
Quest for a Cure
Mondays 20 March to 3 April 2006 8.00-8.30pm
Modern drugs and healthier living are extending our life spans dramatically, decade by decade. But the discovery of a new drug is one of the most expensive adventures in modern capitalism. Each one brought to the market place costs around £500 million. But despite the benefits they provide, the pharmaceutical companies face constant suspicion and criticism. Big Pharma, as they are called, make billions, vast profits, out of global illness.
In this ground-breaking series, Peter Day tracks the 18 year history of a potential new treatment for HIV Aids, now known as Maraviroc, from uncertain trial and error investigation in the labs through to large scale clinical testing. Will Maraviroc survive the process to become another weapon in the ceaseless battle against disease - or will it, like most drug candidates, fail?
mp3 13MB 30 Mins
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